When I see you.

I have been so busy that my breaks are never real 'breaks'. They are usually a chase to fulfill (the remnants of) my social life or time spent reassessing my life and relationships.

With hindsight, I expect everyone to just know what I want, but I forget to realize that the loud reverberations in my head are just that - thoughts in my head. I think one of the most valuable characteristic that I have picked up is my ability to be honest. I tried the mind game technique once, and even though that gave me a rush sometimes, it eventually only led to grave disappointment and immense sadness. So now I've found that it is so much easier just to say what you feel, because we can all live with the hope that people know what we want, but chances are, they don't. I will apply my honesty and give the issues in my head a voice.

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I miss serious conversations, about life and death and success and failure. I miss talking about me, talking about you and the thoughts that plague us. I miss watching you watch your surroundings, understanding your interpretations of the things around you, and witnessing your train of thought. We're distanced emotionally, and to me, the emotional aspect is worth so much more than the physical. Let's give our thoughts a voice.

x

Noise: Watermark, Enya.