pangs.

When I was younger, I'd starve myself out of spite. I had less money, and thought, fine, whatever, I won't eat then.

So today when I don't eat, I feel richer. I feel empowered.

I feel like hey, at least I can control that.

It's sick, but you are wired up when you are young,
and unfortunately it's etched in your subconscious forever.

Noise: Willow's Song by Doves

unaffected by death.

"At the bottom of the Empire State Building, the body of 23 year old Evelyn McHale reposes calmly in grotesque bier, her falling body punched into the top of a limousine."

- Robert C. Miles for Life Magazine. May 1947

One morning in 1947, Evelyn leapt from the 86th floor observation deck of the Empire State Building to her immediate death. Remarkably, even after crumpling the sheet of metal and broken glass of the limousine she landed on, she shows no evidence of trauma and appears unruffled. The result is this picture taken just minutes after her death - the calm gaze in her face, crossed legs and white leather gloves allowing this picture to almost pass off as part of an 'edgy' fashion shoot.

I guess it's like what Emma Thompson's character says in Stranger Than Fiction. When you jump from a building, it's rarely the impact that actually kills you... Her face is so serene, so at peace...

And I think it's because when she died,

she could feel the wind against her face.

Noise: I Need To Give This Broken Heart Away by The Beautiful Girls